Listen

Listen I am alone at a crossroad, I'm not at home in my own home, and I've tried and tried to say whats on my mind. You should have known. But I'm done believing you, You don't know what I'm feeling. I'm more than what you made of me. I followed the voice you gave to me. Now I finally found my own, you should have listened.

Strong lyrics by a strong woman. Beyonce captured everyone in the movie Dream Girls along with costar Jennifer Hudson. In the movie Beyonce plays a strong woman who along with two friends desire to be famous singers. They get a record deal and the movie shows everything they went through included this song.

The lyrics to the song listen mean alot to me. They show me that I have a voice, and even if people don't hear me right or don't let me have a say then it's my choice to sit there or to make a voice for myself and not follow everyone else.

"I'm more then what you made of me, I followed the voice you gave to me." This part in the song made me think about all the people to give themselves credit for other people's achievments. It made me think alot about when I would do something and a friend or someone whould say "Oh yeah! I helped her do that, or yeah i did this all by myself", when it had really been me all along.

If you ever have a day where you feel like no one is paying attention to you, I recommend looking up this song and listening to it. It is guaranteed to make you have a better day :)

Song of a Broken Angel*

She sits a room with white walls.
There is a broken mirror hanging from each one.
No matter where she turns she can see herself
But only through the broken glass.

She doesn't have a memory of the world outside
To her this room is the only heaven.
No one can hear her.
All she has are her thoughts.

Everyday she prays that someone will come rescue her
But time is closing and she has lost all hope.
People used to come see her.
People used to care.

No one knows half of the pain she has been through
No one heard her cries or cared.
When she had visitors all they did was laugh
They accused her of lies.

She doesn't remember what its like to be loved.
The only memory she has of love is the trick her mind played on her.
To her there is no trust.
Only promises broken for another persons pleasure.

Every night she cries herself to sleep.
Where she dreams of a perfect world
She dreams of a family.
All she wants is to be normal, but that will never happen.

She hides behind her mask.
No one can see her scars and bruses that way.
She will never let another person know they got to her.
She is selfish in that way

To most she is just another pretty face.
But she is more, a fallen angel
Forgotten to everyone
Walked all over by people who cant see her true beauty

Now she sits in a room with white walls and no escape
The world outside will never know her story.
Her only memory left behind will be broken glass
And her song, the song of a broken angel left behind in all her glory*

The Circle of Life

Strength is nothing more than how well you hide that pain..
how well you hide how you really feel about things...
its not how much you can bench press or lift..
its how well you can keep yourself together in the world.

Life is nothing more than your own...
you can't live someone else's.. you can only live your own.
your life isn't anyone elses to live..
its your own... and its your freedom to do as you choose

Love is nothing more than a gift God gave us
to use to find that one person who we will be with forever..
he didn't give it to us to you use it against people
he gave it to us because in the end.. it's what will keep us together when times get hard.

Friends are nothing more than angels in disguise
They keep us sane, and they are always there for us
they aren't there for us to just use and throw away..
they are there to protect us and be there when no one else is.

Family is nothing more than the greatest gift god can ever give you...
with out family.. there would be no friends..
with out friends.. there would be no love...
with out love.. there would be no life...
and with out life.. we wouldn't know our strengths...
and without our strength.. we wouldn't be the same people we are today*

God.. is the reason we have all of this*...
just remember this next time you ever feel like you don't have any strength
and you want to give up.. or you think your life is worthless* or your not loved
or have no friends or family.. because there is always one person you can turn to..
and thats god...
he is your strenght, life, love, friend, and your family*..
forever and always ♥

A girl with dreams

she sits alone in the back of the room
wondering if anyone would notice..
she thinks no one cares.. if only someone would ask..
then maybe she could just let it all out... but she can't..
she dosen't want to be judged..

she always keeps to herself.. but musters up
enough energy to fake that same smile day by day..
"if only people really knew" she would think to herself.

all she wants is to be loved.. for someone to care about her..
she wants to have that guy around who isn't afraid to let
people know that he is with her.. that isn't embarrased by her..
and dosen't care what she looks like without her make up on..
the one who can look in her eyes and say " your beautiful"..
and actually mean it..

but it wont happen... it never will...
all she knows is the bad things people have said instead of the good..

thoughts like she's not good enough for him, or she's too ugly...
or he would never be caught dead with her..they slowly tear her up day by day..
all she wants is to be happy. but it can't happen..

because still to this day.. she is unnoticed.. afraid..
and heartbroken.. sitting in the back of that room alone... just
waiting and waiting and waiting* for someone to notice her
for once..*

Maybe one day... people might understand her..
and actually get to know the real her who isn't masked
behind that fake smile..*..
maybe one day she will be someone's equal*.. and be just as good as everyone else*..

so why not let it be you?...
that girl is still sitting in the back of that room alone*..
maybe its time for you to realize what its like to picture life
from the outside looking in*

this wasn't directed at anyone inparticular.. unless you feel the need to work on it yourself*

*Life*

Life by Mary Christensen

Life is like an hourglass...
time is slowly draining away..
people are changing
and things aren't going your way..

you try to live your life one day at a time
but its not always that easy..
you catch yourself just trying to make
it through the next hour with out crying
or with out losing it to the point of no return..

if anything you just want to go cry
but you cant because there are people watching
or there isn't even anyone there to tell you
everything will be okay.. but no matter
what your surroundings may be.. you feel all
alone

life is not always easy... if it were we wouldn't
be the same people we are today...
we wouldnt know what it was like to work for things
or to have things taken away from us.. or how to
do without.

Life is like an hourglass
time is slowly draining away...
and if we don't learn to see the brighter things in life
we will just be stuck in that gloomy tunnel to the
bottom of that hourglass only to be that last little piece of sand to fall...
all alone, forgotten, and left behind...*

Updating you all :)

So these next few posts will be a little different, if you haven't already noticed.
I've decided that I want to try out a few poems and see how that works.
Sometimes it's easier for me to express myself in a poetic manner, and I have a few poems that I've been writing over the last few weeks to post up so leave some comments so I know your feedback on them :)

<3Mary E.

This is for all those who couldn't

There comes a time.. when you just give up..
you can't go any further..
you try and try, but it just goes nowhere*
... you stop and think.. well its time for me just to
start all over..who cares about him or her?
i don't need them*.. when deep down you really do
.. you hide your feelings so well that people just
walk all over you.. and they don't even care.. b/c you
don't say anything at all.. you just let them do it cuz
there is nothing else for you to do*

you wonder if ppl really care.. and if your broken heart
will ever heal.. but the truth is.. there still is that one
part of you that is in love with the guy to whom you gave
your most precious gift.. the same guy to whom you gave your
heart and loved with everything you had.. but was just a player
that played you and made you believe there was really something
there... the one you stuck up for.. when your friends said you
can do better and you don't deserve this.. but you didn't listen
to them.. because he or she had your heart.. and he used it against
you.. over.. and over again* the one every boy/girl fell for..
because they said all the right things.. and said all the right words..

and yeahh im really going there...

all you players think its funny.. its not.. you hurt real people
that have real feelings*.. you just use them.. and then you throw them away..
we may say it dosen't hurt.. but you have no idea... none whatsoever
your just caught up in this little game to see how many guys or girls you can get..
that you don't see yourself hurting ppl that loved you..
and possibly breaking their heart..
.... but let me tell you*... life isn't a game.. and you people who do that..
need a reality check..because its not the people who fell in love with you
who had the problem.. (ex.. ohh they were too needy, they were clingy, etc..)
it was you who did.. because you are the person who made them that way..
you said all the right stuff.. and you are the one who led them on...
if you dont want to be with that person.. be honest with them.. and stop
basing your relationship on a lie... because the longer it goes on..
the more dramafilled and hurtful its gonna be*..
and later.. your gonna regret ever hurting the person or people you did..
and its going to be to late to apologize... cheating isn't cool.. and it doesn't make you look good..
no one wants to be with someone like that
so start thinking about this message.. because someone had to speak up
who knows what they are talking about... and has had their heart broken
one too many times* and was lucky enough to find the strength to move on
and to write this for all of those who couldnt and who wanted everyone to know what it's like

Karma... always gets you back.

Music... sweet music

Life is like a melody
Its soft, edgy, and beautiful all at once.
It changes with each measure
Carefully playing out each person's being.

Each person marches to their own beat.
But every person has a melody that plays a harmony with anothers.
Everyone has their own song.
But few people know how to sing it.

A persons song comes from their heart, and not their head.
Music is never decieving this way.
People will go their whole life searching for their song.
But only few will learn to sing it.

The world is a harsh place for music
So many beautiful musicians are out there
But only few will listen
Only few will hear.

Songs of love, betrayal, and lust are all around.
Many stories can be found on white paper
Surrounded by a serious of lines and notes
Notes that become the key to a person.

Many people just see these papers and skip over them
But you have to listen to see the true beauty of it all.
You have to feel with all you have..
And listen to those lines of music... sweet music*

PARENTALS

Parents.
you love them
you hate them
you need them
you want them
Parents.

They always have your best interest in mind, even if you don't think so. I've learned recently (like this past weekend) that sometimes, it's best not to argue when they ask you to do something. Sometimes what may be a big deal to you at the time, isn't even a big deal at all. Like not eating in the living room (yes, that is a bad habit of mine).

I've come to realize that your parents have lives too. They go to work, they make sure you get to where you need to be when you need to be there, and they always (well most of the time) have your back. Sometimes it's difficult to see where they are coming from. They come home tired from a long day at work, and their job still isn't done. They have to cook, make sure we are caught up on homework, get work around the house done that we havent touched (because as teenagers, we are usually in an ongoing state of vegitation and we just don't feel like moving).

Respect is the key in any household. Besides Love. If you give respect, you won't always get it in return, but your more likely to then if you just sit there and be rude. Teenagers need to pay attention more to what their parents say to them, because they were our age once, and they are right when they say that we might think we are right now, but we have no idea what the world has in store for us.

Treat your parents with respect, what would you do if their tomorrow never came?

Please Don't Go- Mike Posner

I love this song! Mike Posner is such a good singer. A lot of people don't like him but I think he is amazing. He sings songs that a lot of women (maybe even men) can relate to. This song is awesome because it's showing a guy who cares about the girl he's with and how much he cares about her.

"Please don't go. If i wake up tomorrow will you still be here? Baby please don't go, please don't runaway." I love his lyrics. They are like music to my ears. I cannot express how many people I know who are in relationships who would love for their boyfriend/girlfriend to say that to them. But never get that luxury. If you aren't a fan of Mike Posner then you should listen to his song. Even if you don't like one, listen to them all because there is a song for everyone by this guy. He is AMAZING!!!

My Life vs. Yours

Have you ever noticed how jealous some people really get?
I have.
I've also noticed that when people do get jealous, they make your life their top priority.
This is why I have decided to write an entry called "My Life vs. Yours".

Everyone has a different life. There is only one person that can truely live yours... and that is you. No one knows what its like to be you, but they can gain an understanding. Everyone is different. To me, I think that when people get jealous, it's simply because you have something in your life happening for you, that the other person doesnt, and it's up to them to choose how they handle it. Some people just blow it off, some get mad and then bottle it up till the wrong time, and other people just get mad and stay that way.

People who blow things off and get over them (to me) are very strong people, they have alot of life experiences and they don't let one little thing bother them for long periods of time. People who get mad and bottle things up tend to release their anger and the wrong time, and then they just either cause more drama, or feel better after everything gets out. People who get mad and just stay that way, well... most of the time, but there are people who can just hold grudges for dumb things just because they don't know how to admit that they were wrong.

So ask yourself, which one of these people are you? What would your life be compared to another persons?
I know mine is different from another person, so I try not to judge, and maybe sometimes we just need to get to know people a little bit more so we aren't judging the book by its cover. :)