Westboro Baptist Church

When I read about how the Westboro Baptist Church protested at a fallen soldier’s funeral, I was pissed. I do believe that we have freedom of speech, but I also believe in respecting another person’s personal feelings and I think by going to a funeral with signs saying things along the lines of “Thank God for maimed soldiers”, and “God blew up the troops” just is wrong. Yes, they have freedom of speech, but people do have the right to grieve without annoying people like Phelps, and his church coming to their funeral shouting and holding signs. Not only that, but they are protesting gays too? What’s next… abortion? I do believe in safe protests, but people do have personal boundaries, and it’s not fair (in my point of view) that protesters are allowed to go to a person’s town… where they are not from and protest a funeral of a person who never once say anything to them or even knows who they are.

When it comes down to the Gay’s protesting that church… yeah I would probably be standing right next to them if I lived in Topeka. I believe that yes, the church does have a right to protest same sex marriage, and even the thought of same sex couples, but I think they can do it in more civil ways. Yes the First Amendment does protect them, and does allow them to make signs, and shirts, and banners, but this church takes it too far. They degrade these people for what they believe; they have a right to their own beliefs too. Why not bring that to court?

Along with the protesting of funerals, this church plans to go and protest the funerals of those who were killed in the Arizona shooting. Don’t you think this church has taken it too far? Someone needs to knock them off their Trojan horse. Maybe they have the right to free speech and religion, but so do other people and they won’t like it when someone comes back at them one day and just puts them in their place. Don’t be surprised if it’s me. I’m waiting on them to show up at a funeral I’m at, they won’t like what I have to say in my freedom of speech. But just like them I’ll make my freedom of speech and religion heard. If they don’t think it’s fair to have people against them. They shouldn’t make a big deal out of civil things that aren’t their concern. They also need to wake up. I would like to know what Bible he’s getting his heavenly doctrine from, and where he got his ministry license.

Easter

Easter Sunday is reserved as a time that we reflect on how Jesus died on the cross for us. We go to church to remember him, and worship in his name. Even if you don't attend church regularly, along with Christmas, Easter is a good time to go and give your blessings to the Lord. It's a time that most people take out of their busy lives to go to church and speak to God.

This Easter, I attended church for the first time in a year. I grew up Mormon and I have never been to any church other than those of that faith. Since my little sister has been attending Wednesday night services with a friend who lives down the street from our house, my family decided to attend that churches Easter services. It was different. I've never been to a church that wasn't so serious. They all weren't dressed up, there were people in jeans and a nice shirt. I wasn't used to that. They were also so nice, the kids all had fun, and they didn't just sing hymns, they had a band set up and people from their congregation singing, and they served COFFEE!!!!!

Growing up Mormon, you were dressed in your Sunday's best, you sang hymns in Sacrament meeting, and you didn't talk. People would give the lesson in the meeting, and you would sit there, if a person performed a special song, then you didn't clap afterwards, you were just silent, and then after the hour of sacrament meeting you split up where the men and women had meetings, and the kids had their combined class. In the combined classes for kids, you just sat there for another lesson, they were usually pretty boring and I got in trouble alot for cracking jokes, because I would be so bored it felt good to just laugh for once. Then you had Young Men's and Young Women's class, which is the next hour of class and you would be split up where the class was just boys and just girls.

Today was just different for me, everyone got along, they didn't split up into boys and girls groups, they all sang, and clapped at this church. It was awesome, they sang songs that weren't old, they were new, and had more than just some old lady playing the piano behind them. It was a good different that I wasn't used to.

April showers?

Well, I can honestly say that this month there has been nothing but rain, and some flip flopping weather. It goes from being sunny and 70 degrees to snowing at 32... In April!!!!!! How does that happen? I think mother nature needs to realize that it's spring, and stop messing around and playing video games.. Let's go girl!! Stop being lazy!!

But what is up with the weather outside? I guess I need to get used to it considering I've lived in Missouri most of my life. It's different up here with everything. In Missouri, the weather was moist and humid all year round. Plus at this time of year the weather would be warm, and stay that way. It would hardly ever not be warm.

Honestly, I'm getting tired of all the rain. I love the sun, with a passion. I can't stand when it's rainy. It puts me in a gloomy mood, and then I'm cranky all the time. So hopefully we'll see some sun for the soccer game vs. Prarie on Thursday?! That would be nice. :) There's nothing I love more than a warm game of soccer. Playing in the cold is not fun and my legs freeze. Just throwing that out there.

Best Song I've heard in a while

So my all time dream is to be a singer like justin Beiber. I want to be able to record music like he is. I love his songs. I litterally have them on repeat on my iPod. He's a semi-idol for me. I want to make my own music, and I want people to be able to hear it. I really wish that I would find a way to let someone hear my voice. I can't do all the work on my own.

I don't know if you've heard this song but it speaks to my heart and soul, and its just a 16 year old boy singing it. I love this song. I can relate to all the words he and the girl on the track are singing. Its such a lovely duet. I hope you enjoy it.

Drugs

I've never understood why people get into drugs. Honestly, they are fun for a while, but making your life out of using them? No, never have understood it. Being addicted to something is all in your head. You start drugs because of peer pressure and everyone around you doing it. Its the desire to "look" cool to the people around you. Doing drugs isn't okay. I draw the line when you start snorting white powder up your nose and injecting yourself with dirty needles. Who the hell does that shit? I couldn't see myself having the guts to do it, or feeling so low in my life that I would feel the need to. I don't understand why anyone else would.

The only drug I can stand to be around is weed. I know countless people who have smoked it, and none of them do it on a regular basis even though you can be addicted to it just like cigarettes. Although being addicted to weed is all in your head. You mentally need it to feel the high, you mentally need it to concentrate, there's always an excuse to keep using it. I don't personally know how you can concentrate under the influence of marijauana, since my friends seem to think everything is funny the whole time they are high.. but I guess thats what happens, and the effects are different for everyone.

But what makes a person physically addicted to drugs? that I would like to know. What's in them that makes your body so depenedant on its effects? Why is it so hard to get rid of. Why do people relapse after rehab? are they stupid? So many unanswered questions. What makes a person do Crystal Meth and Cocaine? I feel like they weren't just laying in bed one day thinking of things to do and said.. "Oh hey.. i think ill try meth today.. let me just stick a needle in my arm and get high". People are idiots in the world these days. I want to find an addict and ask them why this shit is so important to them and why they do it.. then I want to ask them if they weren't addicted to it, would they do it again? Would they even touch it if they had another chance?! Maybe we should make this a project. Go to the Rehab place in town and hear the stories of the kids in there.. I would love to learn about this some more.

Graduation

Today is April 16th. Only 32 days until I graduate from High School, and only 31 days until I turn 18. My graduation is the day after I turn 18, and my party is the day after I graduate so I'll have a pretty busy week. I can't wait though.. Prom is the week before and I'm so excited. I'll be out of high school. It still hasn't hit me yet though.

When I graduate my hopes are to go to Mount Mercy University, but I just don't have any money. My parents won't pay for my college or sign for any loans, so it's very possible that I'll have to go to Kirkwood until I can get enough money to move out and pay my way through Mount Mercy. In college I want to double major in Music and History with a minor in Legal studies. But I don't know how that's going to go. I'm hoping that I can get a soccer scholarship and play for them. But I guess we'll have to see how thats going to go. I also want to play volleyball in college, but it's been a while since I've played, and I don't know if I'm still eligable for scholarships concerning that sport.

My all time goal in life is to be a professional singer. But You and I both know that it's a long shot to get famous, and it takes a special voice to get to that level, and from there on you'll have no privacy. So if I can't be a famous singer, I want to be a lawyer. I'm trying to study as much as I can in those classes, which is why I guess I'm slacking off so much in AP Language. I need to step it up though starting now. I need to make it. I have to make it, my first goal is to make it to graduation, and then after that through college. I refuse to be poor. I'm going to have a good enough job to keep myself going and I won't be in debt either. I can't do it. I so much to look forward to, and the whole world is going to start for me in 32 days. I've only got a month until I'm an adult. It's time I've graduated High School.

Rebecca Black- Friday

Okay so I'm not sure how many of you have seen this music video so here it is. You might need some ear plugs because this is the most annoying video/ song ive ever seen and heard. SERIOUSLY go by some ear plugs. Her voice is so annoying!! How did she ever get a record deal? Oh my gosh, she would have been booed off the stage here.

Not only that, but this girl is 13, what in the hell could she possibly know about partying? Not much obviously. Parties, aren't watching movies with your friends while eating chips and dip on the couch. They consist of NO PARENTS, a semi-big house, Alocohol (tons of it), cute guys (not little boys), cute girls (NOT 13 year olds), and kids who have at least hit puberty. I mean seriously, this is the worst and most idiotic song I've ever heard in my life. What are her parents trying to do? They just got their daughter into one of the most embarrassing situations. Everyone now knows her name, and her annoying little voice. She can't sing, she can't write music, and she looks her age. What teenager or anyone older would want to date her? NOT ME hahahahhahahahaha little kids crack me up.

Maida Dizdarevic

So one of my bestfriends name's is Maida. She was born in Bosnia in 1993. Her family moved to America when she was around 3 or 4 and have lived here ever since. She's always tan which makes me jealous and she speaks fluent Bosnian. (which I will learn some day along with French, Italian, Danish, and Pig-Latin). You may be asking yourself why I'm writing a blog post about her. Well, she's an interesting person.

Her favorite animal is the baby seal. She wants one for a pet some day. She also drives this little white Rio.. it's cute. Especially since it pretty much fits her personality. She absolutly loves Sour Cream. I've never seen anyone eat straight sour cream till we had the same lunch hour. On Taco days at school, you better watch out.. She's known to snatch your sour cream wedge.

She used to work at Chuckie Cheese, but she got frustrated with the stupid peole who work there and well.. left, which is okay, I totally understand her decision. Now she works at Napoli's a new Italian Restaurant. It's cute :) and I heard that the food there is good. Anyways, we've been best friends since I moved to Iowa. So it's about time I dedicated a blog to her. :) oh and she's in my group for prom. <3

Should the Drinking age be 21?

Have you thought about it? should the drinking age really be 21? When your 18, if you can join the army.. Shoot a few people, possibly kill someone and buy cigarettes and cigarillos then why not lower the drinking age to 18? Seriously, it's not like none of us don't drink anyways or smoke cigarettes in High School. Let me raise a few points for you here... 

1. If you can work at a restaurant and serve alcohol at the age of 18, why not be able to drink alcohol? Whats the difference?
2. If you can be sent overseas to war in a 3rd world/ ghetto/ whatever else kind of country there is, with an automatic riffel at the age of 18, why not be able to drink the thoughts of killing someone away?
3. If you can buy cigarillos for weed (yes, they are used for weed, I don't know one teenager who doesn't use them for that, we are too lazy to roll tobacco when we can just get cigs) why not let us drink at 18. 
4. If you can buy your own house at the age of 18, you should be able to buy your own alcohol.. it's your life right?!
5. If you can sign your life away with thousands of dollars in debt because of student loans, the government should allow you to drink your life away with alochol at the same age. (thats a joke)
6. If you can get permanent tattoos, and piercings by yourself at the age of 18, you should be able to get alcohol at the age of 18.
7. If you can even smoke those damn Cancer Sticks (Cigarettes) at the age of 18, then you should be able to drink the damn rat poison too at age 18. 

Its funny to me how we can do all of those things at the age of 18 but we can't drink? I feel like Iowa should just go ahead and let us do what we want and drink, it's not like we don't anyways. To me lowering the age would save cops from giving out Paula tickets, and PI's. It would also save them from busting so many underage parties. If we could have alcohol at 18 then no one would be in trouble for being drunk at parties, or on Campus at colleges. Life would be soooooooo much better. Well... for me anyways

Welllll then...

Something that I've noticed over time is how everyone tweets how they feel nowadays instead of just telling the person to their face. I mean, whats the point. If you can say it to them on the computer in front of everyone then why can't you say it to their face?! its the same thing.

And what makes a person want to tweet? You see a fat chick walking with a twinky and now you have the urge to tweet.. "Just saw this fat chick eating a twinky... #winning".. okay hahahahaha you better hope she doesn't follow beacuse she'll know it was about her. You might as well just say it to her. I feel like everyone should get out of the habit of talking shit about others on twitter. just confront them if you have something to say.

Another problem I have with this is facebook, people are now trying to make status's like tweets. Don't make your facebook status somehting different every 5 mins. Your profile will get annoying, and I'm honestly not interested in knowing your life every 5 seconds... facebook isn't made for that.. but twitter is, thats why its none stop status's, or random thoughts and if your getting confused or are confused. Please tell me, I would be glad to help you fix your little problem you now have.  (Sorry that was rude) Anyways, one last thing, don't say anything you can't back up. If you can say it online.. you need to have enough balls (figurativly speaking) to be able to take ownership for it when someone asks you about it. If you cant then you shouldn't have even said in the first place.

Proms coming

Okay so Prom is coming up and I am EXCITED!
This years theme is Masquerade, and for our Grand March we get to wear masks that we decorate and we have cat walk so its like we are doing a fashion show. I'm so excited. Plus I have the best date in the world. My best friend Cody Lewis... He's a big ball of fun and even though everyone thinks it will be awkward. I know that I'll have a good time with him. We always do, and I would rather go with someone that I'll have fun with then a person who is gonna annoy the piss out of me, and want more than just a night of dancing and fun.. if you know what I mean. I'm not like that I really don't want to mase someone, because I will.

For the after prom we are having swimming and a hypnotist... Guess who's gonna be first in line?! THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE. I'm so excited... even though its still a month away. So happy!!!!!!! :) Cody and I are going get his tux this weekend from my friend Tiffany who works at Mens Wearhouse.. so anyone who knows her.. go there she'll help you find an affordable tux for prom. (Just putting that out there) I'm just over excited about Prom I guess. This weekend, well tomorrow actually I'm going to Marion's grandmarch because my friend Autumn is going to Prom there this weekend with a friend of hers from work. I can't wait to see her all dressed up. The girl is gorgeous and her dress is Black and Turquoise. She's going to be gorgeous. I can't wait. I'm going to be like the annoying mom taking a million pictures of her. She doesn't even know yet. :) Oh well. But anyways I'll keep you updated. :) Peace, Love and 28 days till I'm out of high school!

Kennedy Soccer 2011

Welcome to soccer season.
The weather is nice, elbows are still thrown and the refs are still on some bullshit.
Last night was the boys and girls varsity double header game at Kingston vs. Jefferson, and I am complaining because we need a new team of refs. I don't think that I've ever been so pissed off in my life. Yellow cards were flying everywhere, but mostly on our team. In the boys game one of our foreign exchange students got a yellow card because he supposivly pushed one of the players. Thats bullCRAP. If anyone should have been called it was Jefferson players. It looked like they were trying to grind (dance) on our players. I mean seriously?!
The ref was supposivly an MLS ref.. well if thats the case.. I know why he isn't anymore. HE MAKES DUMB CALLS?! really.. c'mon now. This is why your reffing a high school game. No one on your level likes you. Sorry, if you can't tell I'm pretty pissed. The boys ended up winning 3-2, but I think that the refs were making shitty calls.

When it comes to the girls game. The ref who was giving out yellow cards was the reason we lost the game 0-1 to Jefferson. It went like this. The balls in the air.. the goalie jumps out of her box to get it, it slips out of her hands and PILO (Hannah Palamo) comes up takes the ball and makes a shot. Well the idiot sideline ref (same one who was shitty in the boys game) says the went out the end of the field so no goal and instead a corner kick. Bull crap.. he was just cold and wanted to go home. We only had 1 minute left in the game when we got that goal and we would have had to go into overtime. His decision caused us to lose the game when we really could have won it, and it was an actual goal. I don't think that I've ever been so pissed off in my life. I think that its mostly because we were playing Jeff. I mean come on.. its jeff. Really?! stupid Kirkwood refs. Get a new job I don't like you right now.

Anyways now our record is 3-1 varsity. At least the JV beat Jeffs. But still I guess you can say I'm very protective over my team, and I know a bullshit call when I see one. I don't know one cougar fan that wasnt pissed at the end of the game. I know I was pretty livid, and I still cringe at it. But hey, we have state still right?! We got this. Plus we still have the game against Linn-Mar, and I can't wait. I'm excited for that too. Oh well. I'll keep everyone updated on our games.
Here's our games and records for girls so far.

Varsity: Muscatine (win 3-0)
Dubuque Hempstead (win 4-0)
Dubuque Senior (win 5-0)
CR Jefferson (loss 0-1)

JV: Muscatine (loss 1-3)
Dubuque Hempstead (win 2-1)
Dubuque Senior (loss 1-2)
CR Jefferson (win 2-0)

Thats all so far. But we will beast this season. I know it :)

Should the president be impeached over the "No Fly Zone" in Libya?

In my opinion, no, I do not think that the President should be impeached over the "no fly zone" that was put over Libya. We have obligations as the United States of America to the United Nations, NATO, and all other countries that we have treaties with. As a strong super power in the world we have treaties with so many countries in the world giving them aid and millitary support, its hard not to be engaged in a war or violence anywhere. The "no fly zone" was set up in order for us to keep our citizens who may be taking trips to surrounding countries safe. Libya is going through it's own civil and who knows, a plane with American citizens and troops could get shot down from a misfire.

Then, what about putting some troops in Libya to help them sort things out? Why not? I feel like American troops in Libya will help stop Ghadafi from being such a dumbass. As far as the arguement about the president launching missels and attacking Libya. The Constitution of United States (Article 1 Section 8) says that the power to declare war is in the hands of Congress. Well it's a dead arguement that we have declared war, we haven't. The only thing America is guilty of is putting up a "no fly zone", if any country set up a declaration of war, it was France, not America. How ignorant can our Congressmen really be? To me if we were to put troops in Libya it will be to protect innocent people from all the gunfire and turmoil that Ghadafi is causing. We are doing the right thing and out president shouldn't be impeached for trying to keep our citizens safe.

Nuff said.

The Earthquake in Japan

The earthquake in Japan has caused alot of trauma for the world. Families there are out of power and water and the death toll keeps rising. Whole towns have been whiped out by the tsunami. Families have been torn apart and now they have to worry about massive amounts of Radiation leaking out into the air. This worry of massive contamination has required workers at the Power Plant there to be evacuated except for a few who are currently still working to try and save the plant from over heating.

This hasn't just affected that country but also our country and even our community.  One of the foreign exchange students that attened our high school went back to Japan about a month ago and her family lived in the most effected part of Japan. Since the power is out there is no phone or internet right now. Her sister has let us know that her family is okay but they are out of power and it's very hard to talk to them right now. I give my best wishes to them and I hope they are okay. It's not easy for me to know that a person that I was very close to has no contact with me. I miss her dearly and I wish that she would have stayed a little bit longer then she did so that way she could be here and I would know that she is okay.

New Term Resolutions

Last term I went really off track. I didn't care at all about school, I skipped class all the time, and honestly GRADUATION was not my top priority, college was. Well, it took some time and I finally realized how stupid I was for thinking I could go to college, without graduating from high school first. It took alot and the past 5 weeks were pretty wreckless for me. No phone, no nothing. I could have my computer but all my homework had to be done first. I finally got ungrounded at the end of the term, and let me tell you, that 5 weeks were miserable.. and I mean miserable.

Well after being grounded I got to attend out WPA. I had fun don't get me wrong. But I saw some pretty nasty things... which I honestly shouldnt write about on here. You would be disgusted too. They should watch some of the stuff that happens sometimes at our dances. Anywho, I mostly went out with my friends for the rest of the night, just having fun. The next day my friend Danica and I hung out at the mall ALL day long then later that evening too. I had to be home at 11. Well I went and had lunch the next day too with a friend im no longer associating myself with (because of WPA and the night before and well what I am writing about now) and the guy I like. We spent all day together and then we all went out to visit a friend at work and then out to their apartment. Well.. this friend I mentioned did some pretty shady things during these few guys, and well.. people judge you by who your associated with.. and I no longer wanted a bad reputation because of them.

Because I told this person I didn't want to be her friend. I am now in trouble with the cops, everyone hates her (so she says), and a shirt was being made. Well honestly.. excuse my language. DONT WHORE AROUND WITH 6 GUYS AND YOU WONT HAVE THAT PROBLEM!! It is not MY fault you opened your legs. Its not my fault you opened your mouth.. and its not MY fault that no one wants to talk to you because of your DECISIONS! I am only in control of myself, and now people have threatened her and I am getting the blame.. so my new term resolution is this. Next time I'm done being friends with someone, I wont even tell them. I'll just stop talking to them. This girl obviously couldn't handle the fact no one wants to be friends with a whore.. and one who would go behind her friends back and talk to the guy they like. If you think its my fault people hate you.. its not.. its only your fault, and look I'm sorry your living a lonely and tough life right now.. Maybe you should give your life a new reality check. The Truth will hurt sometimes :)

Im Trying

Its the end of this term. I have been grounded for the last month and a half, and all I've done is homework homework homework. But I feel like it hasn't done any good. I dont know what i need to do next term. My AP Lang grade has me down, and I know that it's my fault that I wasnt motivated at all this term. I guess being grounded is what got me to realize that if i didnt pass this one class or any of my others, I wont graduate. :( I dont know what I'm going to do. I busted my (excuse my french) but I busted my ass in the last month and I dont know what gives in that class. Seriously. Ayers, I know I am not the best student. But here I am, ... I'm litterally begging you to please pass me. Please! I DO NOT want to be here next year. I'm ready to get out. I will be working harder next term when I can start over. My slate is clean. I need you to grade me like I am a new student, and not one that slacked off. I can do it, and I have even been trying to for the last two months.

this is my final Plea because I know that you'll see this.

PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
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PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!
PLEASE PASS ME!!!!!!

I'm serious.. Please Pass Me!!

WPA

So this will be the first WPA that I will ever go to. Growing up in  Missouri, we never had a WPA at all. So this is a new experience for me. For WPA I decided I was going to ask this kid from Jefferson. I made him a sign and brought it to the basketball game.. I even held it up afterwards, but he never saw it and left right afterwards :( oh well. Well it ended up working out for me in the end and I decided not to go with him. So my plan now is. I'm going to take my friend Dan. He graduated from Jefferson last year, and he currently goes to Kirkwood. My friend Felicia is going to bring out friend Addy, and another friend is going to bring Danica. I can't wait.

It's my first night out since I was grounded. I haven't gotten to go and do anything in almost 2 months, I havent even had a phone either. So I'm looking forward to WPA. Getting to wear a pretty dress, having a cute date. Just being with my friends :) It's about to be fun. We plan on getting ready at my house after our half day at school on Thursday. Then we are gonna take pictures here and go eat :) I seriously just can't wait. I will feel so accomplished thursday night. Just because I got to go out and do something with my friends. I'm so excited.

One thing I hope that happens, is that they play Justin Bieber. My date Dan loves him. I have never seen a teenager all for some Justin Bieber. I swear, he sings bieber alllllllllll the time. No lie. Every time I hear the song "Baby" by him. I think of Dan. He has the high pitch bieber voice and then the part where Ludacris comes in he can make the low pitch voice too. It just makes me smile. So I am all ready for WPA. I can't wait.

GRRRRR BOYS

Why are boys so confusing?
I swear. They say one thing.. and do another..
or they say they will do something.. and it never happens.
Not only that, but I hate guys who play the friend card. It's not easy to get but I guess everyone will have it played on them every once and a while. I've learned not to let it affect me. I guess I'm a believer in "Everything happens for a reason." I wish I could read minds too. It would make things a hell of alot better for me. But back to the friend card. I hate it. Hate Hate Hate Hate Hate it. Seriously.. Sometimes I want to know I'm worth more to you then your damn doormat. I can't stand it.

Something I see alot is my guys friends always come to me and tell me about the girl they like.. not that I want to date them. But I'm just saying. Why not date a girl that your friends with. Your friends know you best so if thats your complaint then that would fix that problem. I mean.. Hello.. are we not good enough for you?!

Another thing I DONT like are liars.. If your gonna lie. why open your mouth.. Save everyone the drama.. No one wants to hear it. Just tell me the truth.. i would rather be pissed at you because you told me the truth and it hurt than to find out  you lied to me.. understand? I'm litteraly sick of guys who do that. Seriously.. just shut up.. dont open your mouth dont speak.. just go eat a bagle or something.. find other use for it.

I also hate CHEATERS.. cant stand them. why are you in a relationship?! just be single instead of hurting another person for your own pleasure. Whats the use? no one respects people like you.. at least not a person with a brain!

I need to go to bed now though.. I'm going to get even more upset.. Night Blog

Police Scanners

Does anyone else besides me wish they had a police scanner?
I mean hello! that would save you from alot of tickets.. and if you your dumb and in high school..
it would save your party from getting busted.

I bet your wondering why I'm blogging about police scanners. It's because I've been talking to one of my friends on ooVoo.. which is like skype.. but better. Anyways.. his father is a cop so they have a police scanner and so we were listening to it.

I really want one.. I feel like if I was a cop I would mess around a little too much though..
"Yo Officer D.. where you at? 10/4" hahahahahahaah goodness I would have too much fun.
Not to mention. if i had one.. i want one with a little walkie talkie so that way i can be a pretend cop and talk back to them.. so for those of you out there who have one and live in the Cedar Rapids area.. if you hear someone being an idiot over the scanner.. yeahh that would be me :)

Songs that Keep Me Going

Have you ever heard a song and instantly felt connected to it and thought.. "Hey, that is me" or "Hey, I can relate to this"? There are three songs that currently remain attached to me:

That Should Be Me - Justin Beiber
Let Me Love You- Mario
Invisible- Taylor Swift.

Invisible- Taylor Swift- "she can't see the way your eyes light up when you smile. She'll never notice how you stop and stare whenever she walks by. And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her but you are everything to me. But I just wanna show you that she don't even know you she's never gonna love you like i want to and you just see right through me but if you really knew me we could be a beautiful miracle, unbeliveable instead I'm just invisible"

Taylor writes from the heart. I swear she has a song for every heartbroken girl out there. There is a song for every girl no matter what. She has a ways with words and she just explains everything so perfectly. I love how she connects with everyone in some way. She even can connect with guys. It's amazing. But this song pertains to me because of the lyrics. It describes how I feel right now with guys. Its not that easy for me to admit of course buuuut Yeahh, I'm a girl.. I get mushy.

Let Me Love You- Mario "Baby I just dont get it it. Do you enjoy being hurt? i know you smell the perfume.. the make up on his shirt. You dont believe his stories, you know they're all lies. Bad as you want you stick around and I just don't know why. If i was your man baby you'd never worry about what i'd do, I'd be coming home back to you every night doing you right. Your the type of woman who deserves good things. This is for the diamonds.. A hand full of rings. Baby your a Star I just want to show you that you are. You should let me love you"

If you havent heard the words to his song. It's what any girl wants to hear from a guy. The lyrics just move me and they just tell such a good story. To me the story is about a guy who see's this beautiful woman everyday.. They must be friends or talk in some way with each other. But he see's how her boyfriend lies and treats her.. and he thinks that she deserves better and wants to show her what a woman like her deserves. I think even though I am in high school, every girl wants this.. This is probably one of the best songs that I've heard and I still listen to it even though its considered an "oldie" for my age. :)

That Should Be Me- Justin Beiber "Everybody's laughing in my mind. Rumors spreading bout this other guy. Do you do what you did when you did with me. does he love you the way that i can? Did you forget all the plans that you made with me? Cuz baby I didnt. That should be holding your hand that should be making you laugh. That should be me this is so sad. That should be me that should be me. That should be me feeling your kiss that should be me buying you gifts. This is so wrong I can't go on till you believe that that should be me."

Probably one of the best songs that I've ever heard from the Beibs :) I love it.. So true about alot of guys who mess up relationships with girls that they actually care about. It sucks knowing that you had someone and then lost them because you were too self centered or took them for granite. I feel like alot of guys who have done this can relate to this song. Even if it is by Justin Beiber.. (who I am deeply in love with.. he just doesnt know it.. Move over SELENA he is MINE!!) But yeahh. I love this song.. Litterally is on REPLAY on my iPod :)

Well thats all Peace, Love, and let the DRAMA roll :) <3

Twitter- Girl at Iowa State Wrestling Meet?

so I used to hate Twitter... with a passion.. But now I am addicted to it..
I get tweets from my friends sent to my phone. I tweet at school, I tweet everywhere.

I recently got my phone took away from me by my parents and it has been horrible.. I catch myself hearing something funny or getting pissed and immediately wanting to tweet about it at school. But since I have no phone, I usually just take someone elses haha.

I feel like twitter is a good way to get info out to friends (as a teenager) these days. I know right now since I don't have a phone I get on twitter to see whats going on with my friends. For instance, right now the big controversy that everyone is upset about is the fact that there is a girl who made it to state for wrestling and a Linn-Mar kid forfeited because he didnt believe in wrestling a girl.. he didnt want to hurt her, it would look bad on him and he didn't want to deal with it.. This kid being a senior just ruined his chance at a state title. Alot of people are upset about it. Especially the students at Linn-Mar.

Truthfully I would be upset too. But it was his choice to forfeit or not. I understand its against his beliefs, and he will be respected for his decision, it's not like he won't wrestle again. Yes it's his senior year but he knew what he was doing when he made the decision. My personal opinion is that no one can be upset about his choice. He made it for his own reasons, people can be mad at him though, and not at the girl. It's not her fault God made her a girl.

But that was my little arguement about that. So new post coming soon

The Flu

so lately the flu has been going around.
first it hits my younger sister and then my bestfriend.. although I feel like she got the worst end of it.
She was hospitalized with mono, influenza (the flu), and pnumonia. She just got out the other day after being in ICU for 4 days and a regular room for 3. I myself being a good friend went to go and visit her a couple of times and since I am also quite the rebel I decided that no germ could harm me and I went in without a facemask that the nurses kindly ask you to wear upon going into the hospital room.

I quickly realized that I should listen to them next time, since they are certified in their jobs and they do know what is best for patients they attend to. It all started at school yesterday, with a headach... I shrugged it off.. I even went for a swim in the school's pool. It was when I got home afterwards that it was becoming more apparent. I work at a local restaurant. My job is Ally Coordinator which means that I dress the food or "make it look pretty", as I like to say. I had to close lastnight which meant working a 5-6 hour shift right afterschool. The flu started progressing.. and I threw up. I was home by 9 p.m. instead of my usual 10-10:30 on nights I close. I went straight to bed.

This morning I wake up and we have a 2 hour delay.. Guess who still had to go to school and feels like complete and total crap!... THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE... thanks to my wonderful parents. "Mary, it's only 4 hours of school you can make it", they say... right.. okayy good joke.. I might not be running a fever. But I am pretty sure if I was my brother or sister.. I would be HOME right now instead of writing this blog.

My symptoms so you all can feel my pain: Head is on FIRE (no fever though), Stomach feels like its turning over and over again, Im dizzy, I'm on the verge of balling my eyes out because I feel like SHIT (excuse my french) but that's how I feel. There aren't many days that I don't feel good. Usually I can make it through on some advil if I have a headach.. Today is different and my parents are about to find that out real quick.

Snow Storm

So there is currently a big snow storm outside. I felt the need to blog about it.
This wouldnt be the first one that I've been in, when i was living in Missouri, we had this big snow storm that froze everything over. Litterally. We were out of school for 3 weeks. thats alot. So during the break my mother and I stayed at a family friends house a few towns over and then eventually went to Gulfport to visit my brother.
well anyways.. we ended up getting our spring break took away.. not exactly what i think will happen here but still
we prolly wont have the same effect here in iowa.. but i thought i would share my side story so that way i sound a little more credible about this dang storm outside.

I hope everyone has some extra flashlights, and some candles.. maybe a fireplace and a back up generator. if the power goes out then what would people here do?.. besides go sledding and sip on some hot cocoa.. yeahh that would be the best! <3 but thats all about the storm for now.. ill tell you how much snow we got in the morning! Goodnight!

Drama

Why do people always have to get into people's business? It's soooo annoying! Like today people were going around saying this girl was pregnant and now they are saying false things about me??? Like really do people not have anything better to do than talk smack about someone else? If they don't they should find a new hobby... because it is getting really old, really fast. Can people just live their owns lives for once? People need to realize how they would feel if someone was saying that stuff about them... like really here are we in 4th grade? All I'm trying to say is people need to stop this nonsense because I'm finally happy, and with all this drama it may be taken from me and I really don't want to lose this. The moto I think about when I hear people spreading rumors about me is this.... "When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them." -Marilyn Monroe

The Insight Bowl

Mizzou Tigers vs. Iowa Hawkeyes.
Most people don't know this about me, but I am both Die Hard Mizzou, and Iowa.
I love both teams. I grew up in Missouri so that team has been pounded into my life since i was rasied prasing the Mizzou name. But Iowa has always had my heart so I couldn't help but to cheer for them when they played each other December 28th in Tempe, Arizona.

Since it was Christmas Break I had the opportunity to be in Missouri during the game, and let me tell you.. Being in a Buffalo Wild Wings full of Mizzou fans and cheering for the Hawkeyes is probably the worst death wish I have ever had. Now, I am happy they won. But all those turnovers? Come on Iowa.. and Stanzi, I do not like you, I am happy that we will be having a new quarterback next year. He is the dumbest one by far. This is why he will not make it to the NFL. His head just isn't in the game, and he should have been took out a long time ago... Thats my opinion

Graduation still in the U.S. Cellular Center

As many of you know, the U.S. Cellular Center is going under construction to become the new Cedar Rapids Center thing.. I'm not real sure what they call it.. but it will be going under construction. As many of you also know it is where Washington, Jefferson and Kennedy High Schools host their graduations, also is the home of the Iowa State Volleyball Tournament. Alot of controversey has been unravaling around this new project the city of Cedar Rapids is undergoing and alot of people are not happy about it.

My personal opinion.. is that this all came up so soon. They just brought these new renovations up and i think it was too short notice... When there are big occasions happening in a place like the U.S. Cellular Center.. they should wait to start construction at least in the next 2-3 years to allow acceptable time for Graduations, and State Tournaments to find appropriate accomodations for their events. You cant just schedual big events like this because of concerts/ other high school graduations and even concerts that have been schedualed in advance... Which has created a problem for next years graduations, and the State Volleyball tournament. I am glad to say however, that I will have the honor of being in the last class of 2011 to graduate in the "OLD" U.S. Cellular Center.. GO COUGARS!! :) construction begins August 11, 2011